Always

So today was pretty awesome, about as awesome as a Monday can get. (with a few minor annoyances… like say… school.)
I laughed my face off all day with Andrea, she’s my best friend sometimes.
I was just like, you know (invisible you), having an overall alright day.
Went to the college fair and kicked butt with Momma D (Andrea) and getting college information.
I feel a fraction of a centimeter more comfortable with the whole college idea.
And then Robotics (kick ass) and had a pretty good time.
Drove home in AMAZING weather.
I’m kind of feeling like with time I’ll love this new car.
I mean it already has a special spot in my heart with what a miracle it was to get. I didn’t love it as well as I should have, and at times I still do not. But The Blue Bonnet Bandit (BBB, first be is silent so it’s more of “BB”) is doing alright. We’re bonding. It hasn’t filled the whole Chandler left, but it’s working on it. I wish I had more gas in the thing. If so I’d tear up the streets. Car therapy.

(I am too attached to motorized vehicles, I know. It‘s really not as deep as it sounds.)
(sorry, random car rant.)

But aside from the amazingness, my mom was kind of in a craptastic mood to begin with today.
And when I rolled in from robotics I thought she was pissed cause I was late.
But … She informed me that my grandmother has been diagnosed with cancer. Again. In the other boob.
I’m believing for complete and total healing over my grandmother. You should too. She’s awesome, and although she can annoy me to no end I love her to death. And she’ll be around until the rapture, or so I’ve been saying since I was like 7. Or well, ever since I figured out the rapture was when Jesus came back, hah.


On a lighter note…
I’ve been aching all day and all weekend to get out there and work on my purple gate and windows that are still incomplete. But I’ve got too much on the agenda to do things I enjoy.


This song has been a constant sound in the back of my mind all day. I love it. Even though it pertains to absolutely no part of my life. I have no one to hold. hahaha. But nonetheless it’s a great song.

(it doesn’t sound quite as perverted as the lyrics make it out to be.)

“I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
And your hands they shake with goodbyes
And I'll take you back if you'd have me
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
I've been here before a few times
And I'm quite aware we're dying
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always
Always
Always “




Well, all in all I’m okay.
As usual.
I’m usually okay. Gag

See you soon.
So long.
“I’m sick with apprehension”